Stars in the Trees

 
The stars in the trees
Are the raindrops
Glistening in the silence
Of the night.
They form stars
As they reflect
The glow
Of the streetlights.
What am I reflecting back
Of the love
That has been so freely given?
In this moment
The new awarenesses
Of the beauty of the night.
I dedicate myself to become
A mirror of beauty.
The Beauty that comes from Above.
The Beauty the comes from [...]

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Being and Living in the Moment

 
Living in the moment
Doing the ‘do things’.
Being all that I can be
(All that You created me to be.)
Giving and loving
Being open
Doing for the Master.
Letting go for me
Is being unattached to the results.
It is not my responsibility
How the gift is received.
It is my responsibility
To have and use the God given ability
To respond to Spirit’s sweet Voice
That [...]

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The Long Lost Boozer

 

This birthday card is dedicated to a drunk I was in love with who was still in love with the bottle and the addiction.
 
 
It is your birthday.
You were important to me.
I was not important to you.
That made me sad.
Saying good-bye to you
Made me glad.
Your being emotionally unavailable
Made it mandatory.
That was too too bad.
 
I picked your [...]

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Happy Birthday Brother

Happy Birthday Brother
You were always a leader.
Whether it was chasing away the neigbours sheep
Or drving the jitney wagon
You always lead.
Today, as your birthday arrives
You are leading again.
You are the first to celebrate
A Birthday without your darling Mother.
Mark this day with some rejoicing.
She speaks volume through nature.
She sent a beautiful snowy owl for me to [...]

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I planted your Words deep

Mother, I went to the bush to-day to hear you speak in the silence.
At the graveside, you spoke to my heart and said
“Be observant.”
A few feet away from that moment I found some wonderful feathers.
I shared them with the family.
Today, alone in the forest,  with friends waiting while I took our pine cones (from Thanksgiving [...]

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Tomatoes

I love the smell of a tomato field.
We picked them for Aunt Annie in the summer in New Brunswick.
I wanted a perfume that smelled like the vines and leaves.
Brandie made turkey bacon and tomato sandwiches for breakfast
When we had gathered together when you went Home.
You  made the best sliced tomato platter when we were growing [...]

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It gets better

It gets better.
Everyday in every way
Life gets better and better.
The grief only tears out my heart every other minute.
I am working on my people skills.
I am working on my life.
I am allowing you in it.
I am working on my recovery.
I am working on learning, leaning and loving more
each day.
I am working on prayer, [...]

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Dirt

The girl’s were getting together to “dish the dirt“
I thought they would be planting seeds or something.
They were.
They were gossiping…seeds of ‘dirt’about another Soul.
When day is done they put our ashes in dirt.
We cleanse our Soul to release the dirt.
We pray.
Do our step work and take the dirt
To our sponsor and release to our Higher [...]

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Express Please

May I take the express course
In grief.
This slow painful process
Overwhelms me at the wrong moments.
I wish to be happy for your Joy.
I want to express my love that you are
‘in a better place’.
What do I do with this hole in my heart?
Why is the process so slow?
May I please have the
express please?

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Mother’s Smile

 

I found a smile on my pillow.
This morning, I found a smile on my pillow.
I was positive I would not smile again.
Then the gratitude of your love nudged me awake.
I began my day with a bountiful heart
Filled with the memories of your loving ways.
All the distance between us was gone.
I embraced your kind Spirit.
I cuddled [...]

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