Upon Awakening

“Upon Awakening

Soul will be free.”

That is the promise that was given to me.

I was a child sitting in church

What did I know?

I knew of the wondrous things.

I lived in the moment.

I heard angels sing

I was told to sit still,

I wanted to move,

I wanted to dance,

I wanted to laugh,

I was told to be quiet.

I was angry that I could not be free.

In my youth, I rebelled.

I searched for the truth.

I looked everywhere to fill the void.

Used any substance to kill the pain.

I was so angry I had not danced in the rain.

I knew in my heart that laughter was not bad.

I was told to behave.

I was so sad.

As an adult, I tried to control.

I ran in a rage.

My addictions were my self-built cage. 

 Then came the awakening.

I learned I had “choice”.

I learned I could surrender.

I learned I could “follow this path”.

I could be free.

I could dance in the Sunlight of the Spirit.

I could have my own voice.

I learned to recover.

I took the Steps.

I went to meetings.

I learned to pray.

I surrender my past

Each moment, each day.

I learned to laugh.

Now, I am aging

I can tell you now each moment

Is a celebration.

It is so peaceful.

That awakening happens.

I fall on Soul’s knees.

I sing loud with Praise.

I am grateful each moment.

I have learned of the Ways

to be happy, joyous, free.

I sing a new song.

I bask in the Light.

Upon awakening

I am filled with joy

So grateful that Spirit

Had filled up the void.

That does not mean

I am a saint

Those folks that know me

Can tell you I ain’t.

It does mean that

I have a choice.

I can hear the sweet music

Or I can live in a rage.

Each moment is an awakening.

It’s beauty is wonderous.

I digress

I want so much to share

This new life

There are no words to tell you

How much is available

On the “recovery express’.